My Grandma Ferschl died this afternoon. She was 97 and a half years old. She has been such a constant part of my life for the past 41 years--it is really difficult to believe that she is gone.
Gramma had been suffering for a while--she had emergency gall bladder surgery back at the end of February, and despite the fact that she has always been one tough woman, she never did quite bounce back.
COVID of course made everything much much worse. Basically from the moment she left her apartment for the hospital she was quarantined away from the family to protect her from contracting Covid. Only just recently, when she transitioned to hospice, was she allowed in-person visitors. I think that the loneliness certainly did not help her healing.
Recently, we have been able to FaceTime with her. Each day, she got a little bit sleepier and less interactive. On one of her last lucid days, she saw Alaina and said, "Oh I bet she wont even remember me." That sentiment broke my heart. And I hope it is not true. I will do my best to help Alaina remember her Great-Gramma!
At the end, Gramma just stopped breathing, and finally gave up her fight for good.
There are many things that I will remember Gramma for. I loved how she laughed (giggled really) and could fill up the room with her joy. I remember her squeezing my dimple when I was as small kid, and her exclaiming "look at your dimple!" She later did this to my own kids, I remember her enjoying a "7 and 7" when we went out to family dinners at Alioto's Restaurant, and how she would always order her steak extra well-done, like a "hockey puck". I remember her telling us stories of her jobs before she had kids--she worked as a telephone operator, and sometimes listened into calls late at night. She also worked in a market where she "demonstrated herring". She always had good stories to tell from days long ago.
Gramma was always was well-put together with coordinating outfits and neatly curled hair, even towards the end. She never liked to be the first one to hang up the phone when we talked. She wore her husband's wedding ring on a necklace around her neck every day. When my mom was sick, she was always worried about her (and my dad). She always reminded me of how special my mom was. She had a special place in her heart for Jason too. I remember her dancing at our wedding.
We were already planning a big 100th birthday party for her--and I think that until the very end she thought she would make it to the party.
I will really miss her.